This is a great resource that I started using before any of my memories came up into my conscious awareness. This is a great resource for those who are unaware that they have splits and aren't ready to confront the reality of their abuse due to fear.
Learn the Technique of Process Healing from this free online book:
Going back and re-reading this after reliving many of my memories of Satanic Ritual Abuse, I can add my own insight as to what my own barriers for healing were. Many of them were based on religious indoctrination taken from and twisted from principles in the gospel and the Mormon church. I imagine that those in the cult that are still practicing these horrific rituals still believe the same barriers that kept me from healing. In other words, I have sympathy for those who are still suffering in Satan's kingdom because of barriers they have put up due to corrupt indoctrination. It has taken me lots of faith and work to figure out why those barriers are wrong and to heal those parts of me that were religiously participating in Satanic rituals. (I am still a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints and I believe it is the true church. The cult is twisting true doctrine to promote their own satanic beliefs which are wrong).
Process healing helps you identify the incorrect emotion-based barriers that keep you from healing, and then teaches you to utilize your subconscious (higher spiritual self) to trouble shoot the problem until it becomes a proponent for health instead of sickness/disorganization.
I highly recommend reading this book, even if you don't think you are dissociative, because it teaches you how to heal subconsciously and without pain. It even suggests you can heal without the conscious awareness of your past trauma, which may be ideal for some people, especially when you are just starting out accepting that you were abused, which can be terribly hard. It took me about a year to break free of my denial, even though I was clearly having body memories. Process-Healing therapy was a perfect starters course for me, and helped me overcome the painful barriers that made me want to stay in denial about my abuse.
Here is one example of a barrier that kept me in the dark and not wanting to heal for a very long time. It was a belief that God was evil because He would not accept Satan. Therefore, how I could accept the evil parts of myself if God could not accept his evil children?
After successfully identifying this barrier, I was able to troubleshoot it until I found the answer. The subconscious can do this without your conscious awareness, and so I asked my subconscious to heal this for me, but then to relay the answer to me in words, so that I could use it to help myself and others who struggle with this particular deception.
So after applying process-therapy, I was able to vocalize the answer to my question:
It is not God who won't accept all of his evil children, it is Satan who won't accept the evil in himself and all of his evil siblings. Remember, Satan's whole plan was built upon the concept that "one soul shall not be lost"(Moses 4:1). To his unmatched ego, evil is unacceptable, including his own. So if you make Satan your god, watch out, you will never heal the evil and lost parts of your self, you will never heal your carnal nature, because you will never be able to accept the parts of you that are carnal, animal, and selfish.
God accepts all of His children including the mistakes they make. In fact; Jesus Christ, the Only Begotten, demonstrated this by His act of the atonement. Jesus Christ suffered all carnal temptations of the flesh so He could succor us; so He could ACCEPT US, and thereby take authority to heal us from our sins and carnal natures and lusts, provided that we live His gospel of baptism, repentance, receiving the Holy Spirit, and enduring to the end. The Savior subdued His own flesh, and thereby has power to subdue all of our sins, if we acknowledge that He is the source of that power. For Christ said, "I had been lifted up upon the cross, that I might draw all men unto me...And no unclean thing can enter into his kingdom; therefore nothing entereth into his rest save it be those who have washed their garments in my blood, because of their faith, and the repentance of all their sins, and their faithfulness unto the end" (3 Nephi 27:14,19).
God really does accept all sinners, just the way they are, and suffers with them until they can find the better way. He will go after the lost sheep, until He finds it and brings it safely home. Sin causes suffering, and God will help us through our misunderstandings until we no longer sin and thereby no longer suffer. In fact, God would accept Satan and all of his followers if they realized they needed acceptance--which is what the gospel is all about. Every one here on earth that has a body, should be able to understand why repentance is needed, because at some point the pain of sinning will inevitably lead one to look for a better way.
It is Satan that believes that to be lost is the unpardonable sin, not God. God wants all to receive eternal life, and sees our mistakes and sins as a temporary lost state from which we can be saved if we have faith in Jesus Christ and after receiving the truth, repent from our previous misconceptions.
Satan is prideful and therefore cares a lot about mistakes. Not making mistakes is more important than having agency, therefore, he wanted to destroy agency in order to not allow one soul to be lost. But he himself is lost. And because he can't accept that reality as a true aspect of himself, due to his prideful insistence that to be lost is unpardonable, he can never be found.
His belief reinforces itself by seeing those of us who sin and our resulting suffering as a result. Hence he tries to get us all to sin and thereby suffer, to fulfill his self-prophecy that to be lost is the worst possible scenario, and to prove how much of a failure God is that so many of His children are lost.
Again, it is nothing to God if we are lost temporarily, for He will search us out until He finds us. He is not afraid that we have to suffer while we sin, because He will find us and bring us home if we believe on His authority. If we have faith in that, then we can accept all the evil aspects of ourselves because we are confidant that they will be healed through Christ. God recognizes all of our mistakes, sins, and negative experiences, and will deliver us from their powerful bondage if we put our trust in Him by obeying His voice of truth, and thereby receiving the healing/purification. All He asks is that we love Him, which is easy to do when it is He that comes the long way to rescue us when we fall.
God accepts the reality that evil will exist in all of us until we are perfected through Christ, and moves forward with His plan of Salvation accordingly. Satan does not accept that evil will exist in all of us in order to drive our learning and growth. That is why Satan and God don't get along. God sees our evil as temporary learning devices, Satan sees our evil and resulting suffering as proof that God's plan is failing. But God's plan will not fail, for in the end, those who choose God's plan will learn obedience by suffering. All experiences will be for our good. For "though [He] were a Son, yet learned [He] obedience by the things which he suffered", "And my people must needs be chastened until they learn obedience, if it must needs be, by the things which they suffer" (Hebrews 5:8 and D&C 105:6, respectively).
Julie T. Bucker
Is love stronger? Stronger than all other things? Whose side will you choose to be on?
Satanic Ritual Abuse